Sem 2

Times flies and the holis are coming to an end. At the end of Sem 1 I still have no clue about what I am going to major. But before that, it's back to the drawing board for next sem's modules. At present, it looks like this is what I will do next sem:
French 2, Introduction to Japanese Studies, Singapore Society, Introduction to European Studies and General Biology.
Objectives of the Sem: to have 3-days week and no lessons before 1200. And hopefully i can get a better CAP than this year's 3.7.
Today Round 0 of Module Bidding has begun and I had placed my bids, eventhough I still don't really know what round 0 is for....

I'm Back

Guess if my blogs are always made up of lyrics then it doesn't really count as a blog.
Been working my ass off this whole holiday. I club like 6 days a week because I am working at Mdm Wong's. For those mountain turtles out there who don't know where it is or what it is, it is the biggest night spot at the infamous Mohd Sultan Road.

I got my results yesterday. So sweet of Issy to inform me that it's out and to check for me. Thanks! For those who might be interested to know I got a 3.7. In layman's terms that should count as an average score I guess. Here's the details: French A, Philo, Cultural Studies and Infocom B and Political Science B-.

Before I started school I was aiming for honours, while in school I wish only not to fail, now that the results are out my hopes for honours are rekindled. Never expect Political Science to be my weakest subject. It shouldn't be. We were exposed to politics since primary school. All the national education and history classes were talking about political science stuff. On top of that I went to NS. Looks like now Political Science is off my "possible major" list.

Unforgettable

Unforgettable
Nat King Cole

Unforgettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable, thought near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me

Never before
Has someone been more
Unforgettable, in every way
And forever more, that's how you stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I amUnforgettable too

No, never before
Has someone been more
Unforgettable, in every way
And forever more, that's how you stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I amUnforgettable too

The Reason

The Reason
Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Heaven Knows

Heaven Knows
Rick Price
_____
She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up
Till I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know
And though she's so far away
It just keeps getting stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holdin' on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
My friends keep telling me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in time
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all the time I act so brave
I'm shakin' inside
Why does it hurt me so
Maybe my love will come back someday
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows

Thou Shalt Eat

The many cuisines in the world
They reflect the many cultures in the world
Eastern, Western
Chinese, Japanese, Viet, Thai
French, Italian, Mediterranean
Just to name a few.

Yin Shi Nan Nu,
Yi Shi Zhu Xing,
Eating is an essential part of our life.

We should eat whenever we want,
Whatever we want.
Healthy steamed vegetables,
Unhealthy deep-fried fast food.
Why bother, just eat!

You may be a little overweight from too much fats,
Always breathless from too high a cholesterol level.
Nothing a little exercise can't solve.

So why distance yourself from the delicacies of the world.
Try everything, Eat everything.
As long as it's edible, indulge.

Thou Shalt Slack

"All work and no play makes Jack a dull boy"

There's a time for work and there's a time for play.
When we've work enough we should always take a rest.
it's good for our eyes, our body and it's good for our work.

Xiu xi shi wei le zo geng chang yuan de lu
Wo men yi tian zhi you 24 xiao shi
Gong ke shi yong yuan zhuo bu wan de

Do what you can with what you have
The rest is up to someone else.
And when it's time to slack,
Slack.
It defeats the purpose if you think of work while resting.
The converse holds true.

Thou Shalt Sleep

Sleep is such an enjoyable thing.

It gives you rest.
It revitalises you.
It allows your body to recover.
It lets your brain organises itself.
It simply feels great.

Everybody should sleep.
No matter how busy you are.
No matter if you have a test tomorrow and you are not done studying.

Sleep deprivation is a known method of torture.
Insomnia is a mental problem.
So why subject yourself to such unpleasant events?

Forget it when they tell you you sleep your life away.
Forget it when they say you are lazy.
Forget it when they call you a pig.

Indulge in a little sleep.
You deserve it.

Loonism

The Commandments of Loonism

- Thou shalt sleep
- Thou shalt slack
- Thou shalt eat
- Thou shalt drink beer
- Thou shalt make love
- Thou shalt not conform
- Thou shalt evolve

To be updated......

Dean Martin's

When You're Smiling

When you're smiling
When you're smiling
The whole world smiles with you
When you're laughing
Oh, when you're laughing
The sun comes shining through
But when you're crying
You bring on the rain
So stop your sighing
Be happy again
Keep on smiling'cause when you're smiling
The whole world smiles with you
But when you're crying
You bring on the rain
So stop your sighing
Be happy again
Keep on smiling'cause when you're smiling
The whole world smiles with you

Quote of the day

"Love is a gift, not an obligation"
---- Salma Hayek 'Fools Rush In'

We should never feel obliged to love.
Not many people know that.
They might think they know.
They don't.

She say she knows.
If she really knows.
Then why does she still feel obliged?

Do we have the right to love?
Do we have the right to refuse love?

If love is not returned, do we let it go?
Or do we fight for it?
Where is the line?
When we cross over and become irritating?

I know not love.
But I know friendship.

He said, "Friendship is a gift, not an obligation".
I agree.
But why do we feel obliged sometimes?
Why do our friends expect things of us sometimes?
I feel that he expects from me.
So does he mean what he said?
Does he know what he said?

Thought of the day

Life's a facade.
I am an actor.
People are acting.
I can no longer tell what's real.
Therefore I often misunderstand.

He is proud.
We have changed.
Fingers are pointing.
I can no longer tell his mind.
Is he distressed and hiding?
Am I thinking too much?

I look upon myself as different.
I am not those that know not that they are not in full capacity.
he says, a fool will not know that he is one.
Am I the fool or is it him?

They are hard to fathom.

One looks like she does not understand.
I had the impression that she doesn't.
Then again, I changed my mind.
I now think that she does.
Or does she?
The many layers of truth.
Who is the winner in the mind games?

Life house -No Name Face

Breathing
I'm finding my way back to sanity again though I don't really know what I am gonna do when I get there take a breath and hold on tight spin around one more time and gracefully fall back in the arms of grace I am hanging on every word you say and even if you don't want to speak tonight that's alright, alright with me 'cause I want nothing more than to sit outside Heaven's door and listen to you breathing is where I want to be I am looking past the shadows of my mind into the truth and I'm trying to identify the voices in my head God, which one's you let me feel one more time what it feels like to feel and break these calluses off me one more time I don't want a thing from you bet you're tired of me waiting for the straps to fall off your table to the ground I just want to be here now

Everything
find me here speak to me I want to feel you I need to hear you you are the light that is leading me to the place where I find peace again you are the strength that keeps me walking you are the hope that keeps me trusting you are the life to my soul you are my purpose you are everything and how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you would you tell me how could it be any better than this you calm the storms you give me rest you hold me in your hands you won't let me fall you still my heart and you take my breath away would you take me in would you take me deeper now 'cause you're all I want you are all I need you are everything everything

Colorgenics Analysis

Everyone feels despondent at times and you are no exception. You are feeling so depressed because it seems that everything that could go wrong has gone wrong and you don't quite know which way to turn. So like the proverbial ostrich you are trying to bury your head in the sand. But that won't work - you have to face reality.

You are finding the present situation extremely demanding and you're having difficulty coping with it. A great deal of strain is involved and you would really like everyone and everything to leave you alone for a while, just so that you can put everything into perspective.
You feel very lonely and frustrated at this time but your shyness and modesty precludes you from establishing any deep form of relationship. You feel rather isolated and alone. You are egocentric and you believe that you are always right - well maybe you are - but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offense for the slightest reason.

Having experienced considerable disappointment of late and not knowing quite what to do about it this has led you to suffer a great deal of agitation and anxiety. You are trying very hard to make favourable impressions all round. You feel that you have a right to do anything that you wish without being condemned for your beliefs. Everything seems to be going against you and you feel helpless to change the situation. The possibility of failure is most upsetting and this situation is leading to untold stress. You honestly believe that the situation is not of your making - it is not your fault - you have been misled and abused by those that you trusted, but you are trying to look at the situation quite dispassionately. Would you perhaps not agree that this situation could be regarded as unrealistic self justification?

You are completely worn out - physically and mentally - and it has got to the stage where 'you don't want to participate anymore'. You are in fact experiencing what is known as 'burnout' and your reaction is such that you feel that everyone is against you yet you still seem to refuse to listen to reason. You are hostile, bitter and indignant. You insist that you want and are entitled to your own way - well maybe you are, but your attitude is not conducive to making friends. Take it easy. Let go and get back into the World.

A Bike Is Like A Girlfriend

I actually had this theory in my mind for quite a while. The resemblence between a motorbike and a girfriend is really quite uncanny.


Your bike is there when you are happy or sad, together you take to the road and feel the wind in your hair. Makes you feel pretty alright after a session together.

You can ride to the beach and just sit there silently and enjoy each other's company. Nothing needs to be said. Just the sound of the waves and the feeling of sand and wind.

You take on heavy traffic together like you take on obstacles in your relationship. Be it in heavy monsoon rain or scorching mid-day sun.

Like all relationships, there's bound to be quarrels and fights. People get hurt. When things aren't going so well with your bike, accidents happen and people still get hurt.

As a gentleman, you pay for all your expenses out on a date. When you have a little more cash in your wallet, you take it out more often,giving it the best treats like good old V-power and feed it well. When you don't have the dough, you stay at home or give it lower grade petrol like formula 98.

Just like when you bring your girfriend to a posh restaurant for a special dinner or having take-outs at home on some nights. Or sometimes to JB to have cheap yet good food.

When you have a beautiful girlfriend or bike, you sometimes want to bring it out and show her/it to your friends and just indulge in the praises and compliments.

Occasionally, when the bike is dirty, you bring it to the cleaners or spend some quality time at home giving it a good wash. Helps to get rid of all the stress in life. You do that to your girlfriend too, by pampering her with a trip to the spa or just nice time in the bathtub at home.

Once in a while you'll like to buy her a nice necklace or bracelet. Once in a while you want to add a nice sticker or logo to your bike.

When the bike is damaged, you worry. You bring it to the mechanics and makes sure that it is well taken care of. When your girlfriend is sick, you bring her to the doctor and makes sure she is well taken care of too.

Like most men, it's inevitable that you ogle at pretty girls on the streets or compliment on how nice some girls looked. But deep down inside you know that it's your girl that you really love, your girl that you really want to be with. You just cannot help but to drool at the R1 that just zoomed down the streets.

Sometimes bikes, like girlfriends, can be a liability, or a motivation. When you are sick and tired of your job, you will still want to work hard and find money because you know that there's instalments and bills to pay.

Some people rush to get a bike, like they rush into relationships. Without first understanding what they want, or checking out the market. What happens is that they get the wrong bike and then realise it's not compatible.

Then there are those that change bikes like they change their girlfriends. They are seen with a different bike/person at every other social event.

Everybody wishes that their bike can run faster, look fiercer. Every men wish that their girlfriend had bigger boobs or a slimer waist. If they can afford it, they'll probably pay for their girlfriends to go for surgery. At her consent of course. That's the only thing. Your bike can't refuse to have the exhaust or caburetter changed.

No matter how pretty your girlfriend is, you always fantasize about being with that drop-dead gorgeous actress on TV. No matter how good your bike is, you'll always fantasize about riding that R1 or Hayabusa you saw at the showroom.

After you get used to riding a bike, you can't do without it. You no longer want to take the bus or the train anymore. You now like the fact that you are with somebody. No longer having to be like the rest, still swimming in the pool of crowded cabins. Knowing that you'll always have a seat and nobody fight with you over it.

Bus and train rides will now be a novelty. Something fresh once in a blue moon. Like that little fling you had with that girl you meet in the club. Nothing serious, no commitment involved. Just something to remind you how much you love your bike.

Of course sometimes, after a while, you just feel jaded. Like there's no more excitement being together. No amount of wind in your hair can lift your spirits anymore. That is the sign that it's time to change a new machine. That is also the sign that you have outgrown your feelings and maybe a break will be good for the both of you.

Last but not least, a good quality lubricant always makes things better.

More Than Just A Bad Hair Day

As you can see, I am really not a fan of blogging... It's been more than 2 months since my last blog... 1 of the reasons is probably me being too lazy to find out how it works... Alll I know is to add new posts... So if any fated person sees this and can tell me more ways to make my blog site nicer... Such as adding music or what... Please let me know... You can find me using the various methods listed at the side...

So here I go again... Bitching about how bad another day is...

First... I almost lost my camp pass this morning on my way to work... It scared the hell out of me when I touch my pass-holder and not feel that piece of plastic... 1st thing that came to mind was "Holy Shit!!!! I'm gonna go DB even if that bitch don't charge me!!!" Oh... That was about a week earlier when my officer a.k.a bitch( I'm not the only one to call her that... In fact I'm just following suit) threaten to charge me for screwing up some PB shit... Luckily... I managed to recover it(my pass) after a little bit of searching...

Then... I got stressed out when my officer ask me for the assignment that she gave me last week... On that note... I haven't finish it and I can see tomorrow's gonna be hell for me...

".. .got bills to pay, my head just feels in pain, i missed the bus and there'll be hell today, i'm late for work again and even if i'm there, they'll all imply that i might not last the day..."
- Dido, Thank you

Of course... I don't take the bus... I ride... Other than that assignment... I have 1 that I did completed... But it ain't any good because... I SCREWED UP... as usual... Of course not that I meant to do it... It just happened... Kinda sad isn't it... Looks like I can't do anything right nowadays... Self-confidence level nowadays is zilch... Where is the "I am the best" kind of feeling... I miss you so much...

I hate to be the 1 that screws up... Nobody does... But it is really taking its toll on me now... I feel so bad that I took 2 ciggies straight... Last time I did that was way back... Where is the "take is easy... Everything's cool" me... I miss him too...

After all that... I got called into my Boss's office... Of course I'm not the only one... She called the whole team in... That would include Brennen and Nic... She's nice... She reasons more... Unlike someone else... But what she said wasn't pleasing to the ear still... That she was rattling about how disappointed she was with what happened over the past week(see above)... And also how we lacked teamwork and commitment... And that we being so experienced(Me and Brennen being CPLs... which is also the highest rank for a clerk)... Can make so much mistakes...

On that... I think she's a little mistaken... In fact... We were posted to WOSA even later than her... Experienced... MY ASS... I was nowhere near being a clerk before this... I wanted to make this clear to her... But I figured this is not the right time...

After trying to do as much as possible to salvage my work... I finally realised that nothing more can be done for the day... so at 1904h... I headed home... After my usual dose of 封神榜 and 寻秦记... I sat down... Switched on my computer... Checked my email... Yeah! NUS replied... I was getting worried as more of my friends received their notification from NUS to go for their medical checkup for admission... I've got none... And the mail... TO MY HORROR!!!! Told me that my place in NUS is for admission in 2005-2006!!! OH MY GOD!!! That is almost the worst thing that can happened!!! Fortunately it seems... That I still have a chance to do something about it...

So that basically sums up how lousy my life is now... The worst being that I don't even know how to end this... Which should have been a piece of cake... I did get an A2 for GP...

So dangerous

This morning on my way to work I almost killed 3 people. Me, my sister and this fucking old man that tried to cross the road... Nothing wrong with him being old, trying to cross the road or jaywalking... But that he suddenly turned back after crossing halfway... RIGHT into my path!!!!! It took milliseconds... and pure instinct for me to avoid hitting him... This is the first time that I brake so hard that my tires screech... Luckily the road was dry... If not I can imagine all 3 of us lying in hospital now...

It is also the first time that I stayed back in camp to work... How much of it is actually work?? Hell knows... But I actually reached home at 9 plus... And I was all wet... Also don't know why I was so stupid not to put on my raincoat when I had 1 just in the box... By the time I reached home... I was cold, wet, tired, hungry and downright miserable... Arranging to have dinner delivered, I took a nice warm shower and felt like calling The Girl... Took a little mustering of my courage but I managed to make myself pick up the phone... So nervous... Too bad she never pick up...Not meant to be...

5 months and 7 days to ORD!!!

This past month or so is almost the busiest of my NS days... other then those spent in Commandos and OCS... The rest of my NS days were mostly spent eating, sleeping, playing games and whatever... I know I had a relatively good NS live compared to many of my peers... But this clerical shit is really killing me... I know I know... I said that I was open to new things and take them as opportunities to acquire new skills... and I did... But seriously, I am not meant for clerical jobs... I guess this is helping me shape what I want in the future...

Since the last blog, I have been reading a book on etiquettes... This is not the first time I read such a book... But it doesn't seem to help... I wonder if it's because I can't be bothered... or I really have problems remembering what I read... I am also watching 流星花园... The Taiwanese version... Actually my sis is watching it... Just watching along... Everytime I watch a romantic show I wish I am experiencing the same thing... Don't know what's my problem... It probably isn't really much of a big deal that i have not had a serious relationship before, albeit that many people think I do( do I really look like I do?)... But I always think that the things couples do together... It's nice... I want to experience it...

Brand New Year, Brand New Try...

OK... The year is 2004 and here I am in the wee hours trying to blog... This ain't my first try but the first isn't worth mentioning. Whatever I wrote I think I deleted... I think... Anyway I hope I can figure out how to use this bloody thing correctly and blog more often... Though I think most probably there's no one interested to read about what I have to say...