I need it off my chest

I need it off my chest
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Today I got a new word to describe myself. Courtesy of my friend.
I am now good, bad, emotional, cold, philosphical, crappy and some others that I can't remember. The latest additional is immature.
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My friend cited an example that my use of words shows that I am immature.
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This is also why I got some of the other descriptions. So here I am to defend myself and let ppl know more ABOUT ME.
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I have many frens from all walks of life. When I talk to them I try to choose the appropriate form of language. I can be refined, vulgar, concise or naggy. This is the way I communicate. If anyone is not happy with the way I talk, you shld let me know. I am NOT God. To accommodate you, I can change the way I talk. This is not hyprocrisy, like what some of my frens think. This is so that I am at the same level as the person I talk to. Or maybe I am easily influenced.
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When I am with an Ah Beng, I talk like AB. When I am with a kantang, I talk like kantang.
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The way I talk to someone also reflects the level of comfort I feel. But it DOESN'T have to. I do care abt other ppl's level of comfort. IF they let me know. I always try to guess other ppl's mind, but like I say, I AM NOT GOD.
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Another complaint is I talk with ambiguity. This in fact, in my perspective, is a skill I am learning. Although it drives some ppl crazy. Long long time ago, I heard from a fren of a person who always leaves an escape route for himself when he speaks. Which I personally feel that is a very good method.
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So when I say "maybe", or "I think so but I am not sure", it is so that if something goes wrong, ppl can't come back and say "WL, YOU TOLD ME THAT BLAH BLAH BLAH AND NOW IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!"
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Most of the abovementioned ("Most of" is my escape route here) can also be applied to other perhaps unacceptable behaviours of mine.
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So if you don't like something, TELL ME!

So tired

J'ai très fatigue.
Aujourd'hui, J'ai deux test.
Un de Français 2, et un de La politique de Europe contemporain.
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Je n'ai su pas
Les test sont trop difficile.
Maintenant, J'ai fatigue.
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Et puis,
les examen s'approachent
Je n'ai pas assez de temp.
Il y a trop de livres.
Je ne peux pas finir.
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Putain!
Le Co-op n'a pas mon portable
Argh!

Knowing and understanding

She is feeling down
She is bogged down
These all I see
That's all I do - see

She lets me in on her troubles
I now know what's up
Looking at my replies
I suddenly feel that
It looks like someone who knows
But don't understand

What can I do?
What shall I do?

Clamped

How lucky can I get
Yesterday I won 50 bucks
Today
I lost a hundred
Why
Because my wheels got clamped
Costed me a hundred to get them released
Never knew the campus security was that efficient
1001 I reach school
Parked my bike at Forum carpark
1012 they clamped it
But I think it's just me
Because
When I leave to come home
There was another bike there
No clamps

Feelings

I feel alot about things
But I don't like to rely on feelings
Even though they pop out often
Sometimes they are just plain inaccurate
Sometimes they are too accurate
And sometimes They tell me what I don't want to know
And more often than not
they affect my actions in a way that's not the best

Mdm Wong

The management is very clever
All this while I expressed interest in bar
They refused to let me in
The moment I expressed desire to leave
Because I want to put more time into school
And you
They let me in
I still prefer to be in the bar
4 days in the bar
It's fun
Now I don't know whether I should still leave
Damn you management
Haha

Smoking

A roll wedged between my fingers
Only the second one today
It's another attempt
A little at a time
Because you don't like it
I thought I'd get to see you today
Controlled myself
Didn't wanna smell like a cig butt near you

Angel

Angel
Written by - Sarah McLachlan
Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh, beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees
In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

I don't know

Yesterday I was still sure
Today I am not
Why I don't know
Maybe tomorrow I will be again
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Always on my mind
while I'm in school
While I'm eating
While I'm studying
While I am playing
Even now
While I sit here listening to Sarah's Angel
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It's been awhile
So strong it is
It's always so
But this is different
It may end the same
It might end different
It might not end
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I'll try
I'll really try
I hope it's going to be different
This one is different
I can feel it
I just know it

What Greek God am I? 

What Kinda Mask I hide Behind

I've heard it all

I've heard it all.
Quite a few at least.
All in 1 day.
Within that few hours.
Those few hours that were some of the best in recent times.
That few lines.
Lines that a man almost never want to hear.
Not a man like me at least.
Just a few here and there.
Amongst the so many you said.
Almost ended any hopes that I harboured.
Almost.
But me?
I am a taurus.
Stubborn you say we are.
Maybe I am afterall.
I don't know.
We shall see.

R1 2004! 2006 will be better! 

I did it

1 more.
Just 1 more to go and I will complete the collection of driving licences.
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22nd Feb
2A, 2B, 3, 4 and 5.
Class 2, you will be mine.
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And then?
Vroom! R1 2006! Power!
Female pillion wanted!
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Hahahahahahahahahaha

I am cursed.

TP. 8 points. but 1 immediate failure. Sian.
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Think after I always-1 time pass record was broken by the class 5 TP, I cannot pass 1 time anymore. Sian.
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Next TP is on the 22nd.
So far away.
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I want raw power!
2B bike so slow.
Yesterday late for school.
Sped.
But still so slow.
POWER! I WANT POWER! I WANT R1!
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Sian. Go study.

She Will Be Loved

"She Will Be Loved"
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Beauty queen of only eighteen
She had some trouble with herself
He was always there to help her
She always belonged to someone else
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I drove for miles and miles
And wound up at your door
I've had you so many times but somehow
I want more
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I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
She will be loved
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Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
I know I tend to get so insecure
It doesn't matter anymore
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It's not always rainbows and butterflies
It's compromise that moves us along
My heart is full and my door's always open
You can come anytime you want
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I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
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I know where you hide
Alone in your car
Know all of the things that make you who you are
I know that goodbye means nothing at all
Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls
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Tap on my window knock on my door
I want to make you feel beautiful
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I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
And she will be loved
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[in the background]
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
Please don't try so hard to say goodbye
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Yeah
[softly]
I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Try so hard to say goodbye
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Should I?

Sem 2

Times flies and the holis are coming to an end. At the end of Sem 1 I still have no clue about what I am going to major. But before that, it's back to the drawing board for next sem's modules. At present, it looks like this is what I will do next sem:
French 2, Introduction to Japanese Studies, Singapore Society, Introduction to European Studies and General Biology.
Objectives of the Sem: to have 3-days week and no lessons before 1200. And hopefully i can get a better CAP than this year's 3.7.
Today Round 0 of Module Bidding has begun and I had placed my bids, eventhough I still don't really know what round 0 is for....

I'm Back

Guess if my blogs are always made up of lyrics then it doesn't really count as a blog.
Been working my ass off this whole holiday. I club like 6 days a week because I am working at Mdm Wong's. For those mountain turtles out there who don't know where it is or what it is, it is the biggest night spot at the infamous Mohd Sultan Road.

I got my results yesterday. So sweet of Issy to inform me that it's out and to check for me. Thanks! For those who might be interested to know I got a 3.7. In layman's terms that should count as an average score I guess. Here's the details: French A, Philo, Cultural Studies and Infocom B and Political Science B-.

Before I started school I was aiming for honours, while in school I wish only not to fail, now that the results are out my hopes for honours are rekindled. Never expect Political Science to be my weakest subject. It shouldn't be. We were exposed to politics since primary school. All the national education and history classes were talking about political science stuff. On top of that I went to NS. Looks like now Political Science is off my "possible major" list.

Unforgettable

Unforgettable
Nat King Cole

Unforgettable, that's what you are
Unforgettable, thought near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of you does things to me

Never before
Has someone been more
Unforgettable, in every way
And forever more, that's how you stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I amUnforgettable too

No, never before
Has someone been more
Unforgettable, in every way
And forever more, that's how you stay
That's why, darling, it's incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I amUnforgettable too

The Reason

The Reason
Hoobastank

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you

And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away

And be the one who catches all your tears
That’s why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you